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Yeap just look at her face , so much better than me , just look at her obviously you would choose her over me , just choose her i know it would never be me . Her attitude sucks but I'm in no position to judge i won't be able to say that my attitude is better but i think it's much better than hers but whatever . Yes she's more prettier and better and all so go ahead , whoever you choose i will just congratulate you , tmr's 1402 but i doubt u would even text me HAAH sure whatever unless it's in that group yeah. Whatever then. I shall just act like i don't care and spend the whole 1402 not texting you for once. Sucks uh but whatever , unless you start it , i wont. Then I'm just gonna ignore you and spend my 14014 going like ERICISSOHANDSOMEIMDYING. Okay i can't wait for Monday to come but that would probably be the last time I'm able to see Eric haha oh well i admire him Muacks HAHA ok I'll SHUTUP HAHA okay happy advance valentines' day everyone ! (; i and so awesome -winkwink- CSS YB is still with me time to stalk more haha jk there's only 2 photos sighs. Ok bye enjoy your civil defence day celebration tmr and valentines day tmr winkssss. Muaahhbyesx. and last day of tournament today for B Div le it's ok i had fun but i still hate BWSS a lot sighs. Last tournament for C boys next week i think B boys too sigh c boys and he's so cute there OMG like 老牛吃人潮(?) sighs my Chinese not good sighs I'm so sad but AHHH so cute ok hahaha byes.

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"Why do i keep running from the truth , all i ever think about is you . You got me hypnotise so mesmerise and i just got to know . Do you ever think when you're all alone . Am i crazy or falling in love ? Is it really just another crush ? Do you catch a breath when i look at you , are you holding back like the way i do ? Cause i try and try to walk away but i know this crush ain't going away." When you see me do you even think of saying hi to me ? I doubt so. When you talk to other girls , have you even thought about how i would feel ? If I told you i am jealous , would you have even stopped ? When you text other girls , will you even remember to text me ? We're just friend but is there more ? It's just like I'm invisible to you , everytime texting and spamming you with texts but i get no replies or perhaps just a few . I'm tired of trying but why can't i just give up , everytime i look at you it just makes me break down deep inside. I'm tired of texting you and not getting any replies , I'm tired of being happy , I'm tired of trying , I'm tired of life , I'm tired of acting happy , I'm tired of hiding my sadness , I'm tired of not having anyone who cares , I'm tired of having FAKE people who cares , I'm also tired of you and I'm tired of everyone , tired of pleasing all of you , I'm tired of not pleasing God. I'm tired. "They say have courage and I'm trying to" but I've tried enough. I really want to stop trying and stop getting hurt. Just looking at the schools and choices i am able to choose in the future , i just feel like breaking down cause i know that we will never meet again and we will never be meant for each other. I guess this is 'first love'. Everyone says that 'first love' doesn't work. Seems like it too. A crush that lasted for more than 3 years is considered a love right. Moving on seems easy but doing it is hard . #giveup #moveon #tough #sighs #breakingdown but nobody even cares. And today had to umpire 3 single NZ matches for CBoys cocked up at the starting of the second match and was super scared it thank God i prayed for his help and he helped me and the other half of the match went out perfectly muacks.