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knowing that you won't like me , why am i still trying ? i just can't seem to give up. I know you won't like me & i guess you won't too. I'm not even trying from the start , i won't even tell you too. i know it's been more than 3 years but because of this long period of them , i just fell more into you. LOL OH SO CHEESY but not as cheesy as that two Gabby. but well will we end up like the two Gabbys (?) such loving couples who broke but patch and all cause of their fated love haha loving each other for as long as i loved you. yes i just have that feeling that you don't love me and all but i just hope it is wrong. thank you for being so kind and sweet to me all this while. now that you left , you still said you would be here but the fact is still that you left. i just hope even though you left , you would still be here with me and by fate we would meet again , by fate we would be together someday . I will be waiting for that day i guess . thank you for all the advices you gave me , I will never forget . thank you for all the memories , laugh and happiness you have given me , it is just more than enough. theend. #yayirocks(?) ok nights peoples .

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after getting hurt a these times and all these years . i tried to forgive and forget , yes i did forgive but i did not forget . because of my forgiveness i got taken for granted. yes you guys said you are my friends but even when I have friends , i just feel like i have none. i just feel like having friends is not any different from having no friends. what is the point of having a friend who actually treat you for granted . what is the point of having a friend who goes out with someone you hate instead of you but infront of you he/she acts like an angel ? what's the point of having a friend when you have no one to go with when you feel alone ? what's the point of having that friend who just abandons you and still acts like an angel in front of u but she's actually just so two-faced ? i don't actually mean anything but why not just tell me that u at her be her friend than mine ? why not just directly tell me and not say it behind my back ? you guys have hurt me enough and i tolerate it enough. i already kept wary of you creatures but why are you guys still stabbing me , leaving me alone is bad enough but acting and putting up a fake front is even worse . just typing this makes me wanna cry. why do i even have such terrible life and such terrible friends . there are like only 2 true friends ? those good ones are around me indeed but those bad ones are actually those that i actually trusted and told everything to. wow just wow . thank you so much. It's just like there's no point of staying i just wish i can get out of this place and go to a place where I can meet true people all just true .. ALL... it is just so hard to just stay in such a place .