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after getting hurt a these times and all these years . i tried to forgive and forget , yes i did forgive but i did not forget . because of my forgiveness i got taken for granted. yes you guys said you are my friends but even when I have friends , i just feel like i have none. i just feel like having friends is not any different from having no friends. what is the point of having a friend who actually treat you for granted . what is the point of having a friend who goes out with someone you hate instead of you but infront of you he/she acts like an angel ? what's the point of having a friend when you have no one to go with when you feel alone ? what's the point of having that friend who just abandons you and still acts like an angel in front of u but she's actually just so two-faced ? i don't actually mean anything but why not just tell me that u at her be her friend than mine ? why not just directly tell me and not say it behind my back ? you guys have hurt me enough and i tolerate it enough. i already kept wary of you creatures but why are you guys still stabbing me , leaving me alone is bad enough but acting and putting up a fake front is even worse . just typing this makes me wanna cry. why do i even have such terrible life and such terrible friends . there are like only 2 true friends ? those good ones are around me indeed but those bad ones are actually those that i actually trusted and told everything to. wow just wow . thank you so much. It's just like there's no point of staying i just wish i can get out of this place and go to a place where I can meet true people all just true .. ALL... it is just so hard to just stay in such a place .