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Too used to being alone & now im finally fine with being alone which i can't use to be. I use to hate being alone but now i like being alone. Im starting to hate being around people in crowded placed unless they are strangers. I prefer being with strangers than friends. I like meeting new people and i still do but i dont wanna acknowledge them as my "friend" so fast anymore lasttime , everyone i meet , they become my friend just in a split second and i trust everyone so easily. Looking back , i realise how dumb i am haha. And i also want to be able to forgive others on the spot like how some forgives me. Im still trying and i seem to be improving but just not to my brother so i wanna try and start forgiving him and not shooting and blaming him forvhis little mistakes. Its better to start now than never. "better yehet today than kkaebsong tomorrow" ❤️ i want to get out of this KPop world so bad. Its like im happy here but also hurt and upset here.