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knowing that you won't like me , why am i still trying ? i just can't seem to give up. I know you won't like me & i guess you won't too. I'm not even trying from the start , i won't even tell you too. i know it's been more than 3 years but because of this long period of them , i just fell more into you. LOL OH SO CHEESY but not as cheesy as that two Gabby. but well will we end up like the two Gabbys (?) such loving couples who broke but patch and all cause of their fated love haha loving each other for as long as i loved you. yes i just have that feeling that you don't love me and all but i just hope it is wrong. thank you for being so kind and sweet to me all this while. now that you left , you still said you would be here but the fact is still that you left. i just hope even though you left , you would still be here with me and by fate we would meet again , by fate we would be together someday . I will be waiting for that day i guess . thank you for all the advices you gave me , I will never forget . thank you for all the memories , laugh and happiness you have given me , it is just more than enough. theend. #yayirocks(?) ok nights peoples .

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after getting hurt a these times and all these years . i tried to forgive and forget , yes i did forgive but i did not forget . because of my forgiveness i got taken for granted. yes you guys said you are my friends but even when I have friends , i just feel like i have none. i just feel like having friends is not any different from having no friends. what is the point of having a friend who actually treat you for granted . what is the point of having a friend who goes out with someone you hate instead of you but infront of you he/she acts like an angel ? what's the point of having a friend when you have no one to go with when you feel alone ? what's the point of having that friend who just abandons you and still acts like an angel in front of u but she's actually just so two-faced ? i don't actually mean anything but why not just tell me that u at her be her friend than mine ? why not just directly tell me and not say it behind my back ? you guys have hurt me enough and i tolerate it enough. i already kept wary of you creatures but why are you guys still stabbing me , leaving me alone is bad enough but acting and putting up a fake front is even worse . just typing this makes me wanna cry. why do i even have such terrible life and such terrible friends . there are like only 2 true friends ? those good ones are around me indeed but those bad ones are actually those that i actually trusted and told everything to. wow just wow . thank you so much. It's just like there's no point of staying i just wish i can get out of this place and go to a place where I can meet true people all just true .. ALL... it is just so hard to just stay in such a place .

WaitingForLove. 120114 oh and it's happykyungsooday i love you DoDyo ❤️ (Ps. my post have nothing to do with Dyo but yaloveloves)

just watched 'Waiting For Love' on KBS-World. it was seriously such a nice show that i cried. it reminded me of my past & my present as well . it made me believe more that love & fate really has link. without fate , your love is not fated and it won't be true or happy . but with fate , your love is fated and even though both of you have many quarrels & obstacles , fate will still bring the both of you together and love again. yeonae just reminded me of my past where i abandoned a guy cause i had no feelings for him. though I'm not like yeonae's past , the past who have a lot of boyfriends , i had none but i had one guy who i know likes me and i liked him back but we weren't together . yes , like yeonae , i know that the guy really puts me as his first place in his heart but he is not my first place anymore. it is all the past but after that show it just made me recall of it. yes , i know i May had been heartless but i know that I was totally in the same position as yeonae , i like another guy . the guy who had been in my heart for 3years and still counting . it's like he never left. even though he left the school and we rarely text , i just think i should believe in fate if we are to be , we will meet again. just like what he said people come and go , friends come and go . yes , that's totally true but with fate , if we are fated no matter how far we are apart , fate will bring us back together. i shall just leave it to fate & God even though i know it's really a tough choice to make for me . i just don't know if i should even like you in the first place , i don't even know if I'm in the right position to , i don't even know if i can . i guess i shall just wait & wait till the day where i even can feel true love . the love which i had always been longing for . I will just be waiting for love , waiting for the day.

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Had such a awesome birthday celebration today with my badminton members. HAHHAHA love them loads xOxO. Haha ! Was so happy and i thought that today was my day or a awesome day for me. Then i realise that my best friend went out with someone who once betrayed me. I guess she might end up betraying me like how that girl backstabbed me and went with my enemy. Hah , what a joke. Really don't know if i should still trust her or not. Thinking that I won't know , they even posted pictures of themselves seperately at the same place but just posting it seperately. Joke ah. Whatever la. Can i just like.. URGH whatever. I'm gonna celebrate with my family later ! :D OMG whatever i typed just now got deleted and I'm lazy to re type so i shall type it again next time ! But thank god for today's celebration ! I love all my badminton mates just sooooo much ! All of them ! Especially the 8 who forked out money for my cake & those that gave me my birthday present & cards !

Cboys Tournament now & Meeting chingus tomorrow ~

Started off dread to come to school but actually it's not that bad now . The boys are so hyper LOL cheered my mood a little HAHAHAHA they're so funny LOL but i still dw umpire T_T i wish i don't need umpire later man ... Hwaiting cboys ! Got a big & lousy bus to sit in LOL on the way now ~ i can't wait for tomorrow . Still can't believe how making friends is just so easy ~ yay tomorrow ~ :D